Around the BlockA year ago, my past came back to me.
A boy from down the street came to my door.
He wanted to know if I would be his.
I told him I didn't want a boyfriend then.
Now I'm wishing I had said yes.
He was a nice kid.
We used to spend summer afternoons playing in the backyards.
And we hung out across the street by the Civic.
We were good friends.
I haven't seen him since I was nine.
And he came back into my life last year.
As my friend, I miss him terribly.
He lives right down the street.
I'm afraid to go and ring his doorbell, though.
I'm afraid that I might have him mistaken for someone else.
I'm afraid that he might not remember me.
There are so many things I'm afraid of.
He knows who I am and I know who he is.
Back when I was innocent and carefree, I liked him.
I liked him a lot.
Just didn't show it much.
But on Homecoming weekend last year, he stopped me on my way home.
I didn't remember him then.
But he remembered me and had been watching me from a distance.
I wasn't ready
A Lover's DreamLate at night, as I lay awake in bed,
I see your face and hear your voice.
A lover's promise is what you say to me,
My dreams for the future.
But no, that is the phantom of a love I never had,
A love that is yet to be.
Late at night, as I lay awake in bed,
My dreams play hard to get.
To be close to you, the one I love,
Is a reality that will never happen.
My aggressiveness keeps me away from you,
And your kindness draws me to you.
Love knows no fury as a heartbroken woman,
And that heartbroken woman is me.
The love I offer is unconditional,
My loyalty is unbridled.
A hole is in my heart,
The one in which I want you to fill.
A Cherished FriendshipI cherish my friends dearly.
They would do nothing to harm me.
The feeling is mutual.
I would do nothing to harm them.
A friendship cannot be measured by anything physical.
It is measured by what you feel in your heart.
When you have no friends, your heart is empty.
There is no purpose to life unless you have a friend.
It is odd how you find your friends.
I found a friend in a teacher.
I cherish the friendship deeper than most.
It is hard to imagine losing such a close friend.
Even distance cannot disturb the bond of friendship.
Nor can time.
We are friends to the end.
I hope we are, anyhow.
Friendships will be tested with hardships.
We will weather all.
The reason for this:
True friendships are unbreakable.
Maybe -- Just MaybeSo one day we'll talk
And remember the good times we had
Swimming in the pool not too deep
Or watching movies (There were good ones)
I'll think of you when I'm lonely
And I need a friend or otherwise close by
When all the world has crashed and burned around me
As it has begun to do so already.
And in that time when we talk,
I'll probably meet your eyes many times
As expression is obvious in mine
If my face otherwise is blank.
Maybe I'll corner you in the pool again
And let you go past without capturing you
As there's too many lines I don't know if I can cross
And I don't want to hurt anyone.
Maybe, just maybe I will.